Has life knocked you down and you can’t seem to get back up? Have you been feeling depressed, helpless and miserable? Does it often feel like food is your only friend?
Becoming a widow shook me to my core. On April 21, 2021 I lost my beloved husband, Angel Thomas Amador. The man I had loved for 32 years died of a heart attack.
Suddenly my body was wracked with pain and cramping all the time. Exhaustion consumed me. I couldn’t think straight or focus on anything. My mind was a sieve.
Within a short time I lost my husband, Angel, my home, my livelihood, my car, my office, my privacy, Maria Elena, my best friend and a little bit of my sanity.
Staying with family has been an incredible blessing. But living with so much stress and dealing with constant triggers from a traumatic and painful past has been incredibly difficult.
Normally if my Angel were alive I would have cried on his shoulder while eating my way to oblivion. I would have gone from one food coma to the next probably gaining about 70 pounds.
But now I don’t have the luxury of him being here to shield and protect me anymore. So I’ve had to face many challenges on my own. Near homelessness, poverty, losing job after job, learning to navigate family’s judgment, anger and frustration has been challenging.
The pursuit of putting my life back together and starting over has been monumental, but I’m doing it step by step. Making progress every day. To keep myself grounded I have had to let go of old habits of acting like a victim and taking everything so personally. Releasing expectations of others has called me to become a stronger version of myself.
I’ve had to recreate and reinvent my life and my business. With all the old triggers of fear, anger, anxiety, insecurity and shame I’ve had every reason to eat my way up the scale. But I didn’t fall back on the old habits of overeating. I plowed headlong into taking the action necessary to change my life.
My book, “Lovin’ the Skin You’re In Coached Me through My Toughest Times
The first book I wrote, “Lovin’ the Skin You’re In” became my bible of empowerment. It kept me focused on the bigger picture to love and stay true to myself no matter what. My goal was to change my life and improve my situation because I was worthy of having a better life. I like to say that I found my perfection in the folds of my imperfection. This choice to be okay with myself now, as I am, no matter what, was what I needed to end the ravenous hunger that drove me.
Despite all the difficulties I’ve faced, as I continue to manage my emotions using tapping,
I have no desire to obsess about food as I used to when I was a size 22/24.
Today I am a size 12.
What I learned is that the weight we carry is the consequence of unresolved pain in our life and as we release that pain and face those uncomfortable situations and emotions, our weight disappears.
As I reiterate in my book, “Lovin’ the Skin You’re In” you have to love and respect yourself at every size because if you don’t you’ll never feel safe enough to shed the layers of protection the extra fat on your body provides.
I’m going to be starting a membership program based on my book, “Lovin’ the Skin You’re In” and my Losing Weight without Dieting course and program. I’ll be sharing a poll soon so you can vote for which title you like best. The membership will either be called Lovin’ the Skin You’re In or The Juicy Woman. It will focus on teaching you how to tap to calm your emotions so you can rise above any challenge and bounce back stronger than ever.
Would you like to join me on this journey? Does this sound like something you would be interested in purchasing? Want to know more? Let me know.
